All I want for christmas is..

YOU.

Im positive, are you?

haha I know it sounds like a AIDs tag line, but its not.

What you think I don't know, I know.
What you think is not gonna happen, I will make it happen.
So what if the odds are ever in my favour.
I don't really careeeeeeee.

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

It will rain

Long walk home in the rain.

Thinking I was too young and too dumb to realize.

I should've bought you flowers

and held your hands.

Should've gave you all my hours,

when I had the chance.

I was told to abandon ship,

because that ship has sailed.

The captain dies with the ship,

there's no possible closure.

The rain was unforgiving, 

as I strolled with heavy steps

all the way home.

My first kite flying experience

Arguably the best day for kite flying indeed!

This morning as i woke from my deep sleep, all i know was that it was pouring rain right outside my window. Disappointed as I am, I tried to brainstorm for ideas to salvage this sunday from being robbed of fun. Thank god the sun didnt disappoint, it was already beaming bright by the time we gathered @ gombak.

Met up with Li xin and Jin Fa and proceeded to prime mart to locate chan seng, we bought some picnic items and quickly we settled for lunch while waiting for the rest to come. Turns out Austin and Ben had issues and couldnt attend the event. (The guys were mocking me because... apparently i paid for the drinks which costed 2.60 with my 3 bucks and told the auntie "Na auntie here's your 3 bucks", she thought i was tipping her. LOL. They keep saying i felt generous today, but actually they dont know a thing... I feel generous everyday HAHAHAHA, just saying.) AND THE CHICKEN RICE IS SOOOOOOO DELICIOUS!!!!! The chicken breast meat literally melted upon contact with my gnawing mouth, tow gay and rice was awesome as well.

Met up with Joan, Jia Guang, Joy, Seow Yan, Gary, Zhi Xiang and Fidel later on and settled for a spot in the Woodlands Waterfront Park.

Scenery is great and its a recommended spot for family recreations and definitely dating. I had the best day having picnic, kite flying and playing ball games. A long work week awaits, feeling dreaded just thinking about it.

There'll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby...
There'll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby...
Just like the clouds my eyes will do the same...
If you walk away, everyday it will rain...

Going daze, going crazy I can barely think,
You're replaying in my brain and I find it hard to sleep
Should I or should I not?
I still feel the same way as before but are you on the same page?
You'll prolly need time and I've got time in abundance.
Ive gotten pretty damn good at this since secondary 1.
If you're only willing to take a chance on me.
Don't wanna be broken-hearted once more.

New direction

Randomly showed up at my mum's barber because i was running errands round the corner.
Mum's so sweet, she said: "Ive got some extra brown color-ed dye left so I help you dye your hair"
As she continued her special mixing process with the solutions, i saw her opened a new bottle of hair dye.
Oh man, she is a terrible liar, but i love it.

Then thereafter, dad picked us up and we went xmas present hunting in the wilderness of Causeway Point.
Everything has pretty changed since the last time i visited that place, its extra spacious now. I came across this optics booth that has pretty much everything on sale, so being a cheapskate i quickly placed an order for a monthly contacts and a new pair of spectacles! I getting it tmr! Sorry Alison, i approached you the last time for advice but i guessed you're way too busy...I wouldve patronized your store if i knew where it was exactly. Makeover mission success! YESSAH!

Recently, ive got so many friends producing covers of Foster the people's "pumped up kicks" so i secretly recorded a voice memo on my iphone and ive decided that its gonna be my first cover. Reason being its easy to strum and its the first intro on a guitar that ive learnt.

I pray for the sun to shine ever so bright this sunday, for i'll have my first kite flying session with friends.
Picnic's gonna be awesome!

Flashbacks of the past came to me when I was loitering outside Millenia Institute when i was waiting for my bus after a soccer game. The times when we skipped school, where i was always early and she was always late, heart-shaped egg sandwich. I dont wanna miss you this way, and I dont wanna fall in love when you are worlds away.

If I had known what I'd known now, I never would have played so nonchalance.

IM BACK

Man are you alive?! Abracadabra, i will rename you!

Strangely i lost all my older posts, kinda have mixed feelings because one part of me dont wanna rake up the past while the other side of me wants to relive it. So im 22 now, no longer the youthful and naive me who thinks of love as romeo & juliet. Im a grown man now, bestowed with so much responsibilities to take care of my parents my kiddo bro and dear Bandit, and to plan the future ahead of me. And so i enrolled myself into University of RMIT, Bachelor's Degree in Accountancy. I wanna diversify my job opportunities for the future, i have friends who have problems finding jobs nowadays and it worries me. I dont wanna be jobless EVER.

 Alittle update about whats going on with my life now.

 Been trying very hard change my "Mr Nice" personality and how serious i take things, dont know how to change it still though. Well they say good friends will be blunt towards you because they genuinely wants you change for the better, so i must thank chan seng and eric for pointing it out for all these years.

Ive been forcing myself to complete 40 standard pushups, 40 diamond pushups, 40 wide-arm pushups, 200 crunches, 20 sets of chest lift and 4km run per day just so i can stay in shape and hopefully get my gold during my next IPPT. Fit much? A beauty definitely deserves a beast.

 FINALLY...Im taking up guitar lessons, courtesy of Mr Tang. I realize that the ukulele operates differently from the guitar, so im still learning the ropes here. Mr tang's got another student, she's very talented...DARNNNNNNNNNNNNNN I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS IM A DEAD WEIGHT when she already surpassed the certain topic. which just means one thing, practice practice practice.

Been waiting close to 10 yrs for that bubbly someone, and i always have myself to blame. For not being able to speak out what i really feel. Im a lion without a mane, everytime i talk myself into contacting her, i end up dropping the idea, I HATE MYSELF. I cannot look at her the same way like i did years back, she's the luckiest girl in the world right now and i would never ruin this moment. Im just alil late, and im already torn. But till then... How can I move on when im still in love with you?

Here's something to cheer up myself up with, I sing ALOT nowadays! LIKE REALLY ALOT, i find it a way to channel all my pressure/feelings/stress onto. Im gonna beg fidel to do a cover with me the next time i see him.

TO DO LIST IN THE YEAR 2013: 
1. POST MY 1ST SONG COVER WITH FIDEL
2. HELP MY PARENTS WITH MORE CHORES (laundry's my forte, but now i have to venture into the wild)
3. WORK OUT A SCHEDULE WITH DAD SO I CAN FINALLY FERRY MY FRIENDS HOME
4. QUIT BEING SO STUBBORN
5. ORGANISE MORE 2E5 OUTINGS
6. STUDY FOR AT LEAST 2 HOURS EVERYDAY
7. IMPROVE THE WAY HOW I PLAY THE GUITAR
8. 2E5 ANNIVERSARY (erhem.. moss code)
9. COOK DINNER FOR FRIENDS BECAUSE ZI CHAR IS FREAKING EXPENSIVE
10. BECOME BULKIER
11. KEEP IN CONTACT WITH ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS (Chester, GY, RISHI etc and Army bros) 12. MAKE SURE I GET TAYLOR'S CONCERT TIX
13. HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF


 Cheerio