Stronger

I would give my all for love, naive.

I would shower my love to no one else but you, dumb.

I am the man who can't be moved, oh please.

I hope he buys you flowers...

I hope he holds your hand...

I hope he gives you all his hours...

Best wishes, Jeffrey, dumb & stubborn

Im holding on, I'll be your shoulder when you cry, you can knock on my door whenever you want, i'll be loving you.

2013, a brand new beat

Now here we are, 2013.

Been on so many sleepless nights with Yibin trying to get the video and gifts for the 2e5 10th anniversary.

Very touched by the mere fact that the event turned out great, so many faces that i havent seen in awhile turned up and Abigail actually flew back in time to make the event. Kudos to the committees who put in their best efforts to make this event a huge success, it is definitely one heck of a day to remember. 

Time really flies, it a blink of an eye I riveted from being a soldier to a student. Im no stranger to hitting the books, but only this time round I have to be a lot more disciplined than before. 

My wish list for 2013: (revised)

1. Live like we're dying, enjoy the company of family and friends, share the joy and spread the love.

2. Be the one to initiate things rather than just waiting for something to happen/occur, because good things

    happen only when you put in effort.

3. Be confident for who I am and try not to stutter when I get awkward.

4. Bring joy to people around me, rather than pouring out all my negativism.

5. Waking up and rejoice that everyday represents an opportunity to make a difference in someone's life.

6. Offer convenience to whoever I care for, instead of trying to be in their way of things all the time.

7. Be disciplined enough to study when I have a free schedule.

8. Keep/step up on my exercise regime, no harm to look good in those big muscles.

9. Grow as an individual, have a mind of my own and stop feeling inferior.

10. Get my soccer grooves back by joining the school team.

11. Keep cool, calm your mind and keep going when the going gets tough.

12. Resume my guitar lessons with Fidel when he is free and hopefully we can have a cover up very soon! ;)

13. Keep holding on. The art of love is also the art of persistence and patience.

All I want for christmas is..

YOU.

Im positive, are you?

haha I know it sounds like a AIDs tag line, but its not.

What you think I don't know, I know.
What you think is not gonna happen, I will make it happen.
So what if the odds are ever in my favour.
I don't really careeeeeeee.

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

It will rain

Long walk home in the rain.

Thinking I was too young and too dumb to realize.

I should've bought you flowers

and held your hands.

Should've gave you all my hours,

when I had the chance.

I was told to abandon ship,

because that ship has sailed.

The captain dies with the ship,

there's no possible closure.

The rain was unforgiving, 

as I strolled with heavy steps

all the way home.

My first kite flying experience

Arguably the best day for kite flying indeed!

This morning as i woke from my deep sleep, all i know was that it was pouring rain right outside my window. Disappointed as I am, I tried to brainstorm for ideas to salvage this sunday from being robbed of fun. Thank god the sun didnt disappoint, it was already beaming bright by the time we gathered @ gombak.

Met up with Li xin and Jin Fa and proceeded to prime mart to locate chan seng, we bought some picnic items and quickly we settled for lunch while waiting for the rest to come. Turns out Austin and Ben had issues and couldnt attend the event. (The guys were mocking me because... apparently i paid for the drinks which costed 2.60 with my 3 bucks and told the auntie "Na auntie here's your 3 bucks", she thought i was tipping her. LOL. They keep saying i felt generous today, but actually they dont know a thing... I feel generous everyday HAHAHAHA, just saying.) AND THE CHICKEN RICE IS SOOOOOOO DELICIOUS!!!!! The chicken breast meat literally melted upon contact with my gnawing mouth, tow gay and rice was awesome as well.

Met up with Joan, Jia Guang, Joy, Seow Yan, Gary, Zhi Xiang and Fidel later on and settled for a spot in the Woodlands Waterfront Park.

Scenery is great and its a recommended spot for family recreations and definitely dating. I had the best day having picnic, kite flying and playing ball games. A long work week awaits, feeling dreaded just thinking about it.

There'll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby...
There'll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby...
Just like the clouds my eyes will do the same...
If you walk away, everyday it will rain...

Going daze, going crazy I can barely think,
You're replaying in my brain and I find it hard to sleep
Should I or should I not?
I still feel the same way as before but are you on the same page?
You'll prolly need time and I've got time in abundance.
Ive gotten pretty damn good at this since secondary 1.
If you're only willing to take a chance on me.
Don't wanna be broken-hearted once more.

New direction

Randomly showed up at my mum's barber because i was running errands round the corner.
Mum's so sweet, she said: "Ive got some extra brown color-ed dye left so I help you dye your hair"
As she continued her special mixing process with the solutions, i saw her opened a new bottle of hair dye.
Oh man, she is a terrible liar, but i love it.

Then thereafter, dad picked us up and we went xmas present hunting in the wilderness of Causeway Point.
Everything has pretty changed since the last time i visited that place, its extra spacious now. I came across this optics booth that has pretty much everything on sale, so being a cheapskate i quickly placed an order for a monthly contacts and a new pair of spectacles! I getting it tmr! Sorry Alison, i approached you the last time for advice but i guessed you're way too busy...I wouldve patronized your store if i knew where it was exactly. Makeover mission success! YESSAH!

Recently, ive got so many friends producing covers of Foster the people's "pumped up kicks" so i secretly recorded a voice memo on my iphone and ive decided that its gonna be my first cover. Reason being its easy to strum and its the first intro on a guitar that ive learnt.

I pray for the sun to shine ever so bright this sunday, for i'll have my first kite flying session with friends.
Picnic's gonna be awesome!

Flashbacks of the past came to me when I was loitering outside Millenia Institute when i was waiting for my bus after a soccer game. The times when we skipped school, where i was always early and she was always late, heart-shaped egg sandwich. I dont wanna miss you this way, and I dont wanna fall in love when you are worlds away.

If I had known what I'd known now, I never would have played so nonchalance.